i went out w/the girls on friday to dinner and a movie. it was so nice to be out w/people who wanted to be out w/me and who actually had fun w/me. it was so nice to laugh. after you're around someone for any amount of time who is distant and uncaring it's nice to step away and see that other people do want to talk to you and do want to laugh w/you.
i'm still working on stuff w/brian. it's hard. he's very unresponsive and distant. it's so sad that in reality i'll probably never get my brian back. i want him back, so i'll keep trying. it's just really hard to push forward and be positive.